So it’s been 75 days since my last drink and nearly 4 months since I began this odyssey — to sober up, wake up to my life, start a daily spiritual practice something like worshiping a higher power, something like trying to be a more loving person.
As slowly the cravings, mental and physical subside, replaced by new rituals and people and habits, hope increases. Hope that there is more that I can give, more to experience, and a greater sense of gratitude folded into the dailyness of things.
I used to think that a cracked up wit, saucy attitude, and brain full of literature were the tools I’d need to combat the challenges of motherhood and life over age 25. Turns out it’s all so much more prosaic than that. Soft heart, courage, determination, and humility seem far more important to the task these days.
All is not perfect happiness by any stretch, but broken down into 24 hours segments, I can say I haven’t felt this hopeful and resourceful for years and years.
V & I on a quiet snowy afternoon — just one of life’s joys I would have missed before…
Meanwhile, more at Imperfect Parent.
Redsy,
Merry Christmas to you and your family and thank you. Thank you!
Merry Christmas to Redsy and the little reds.
I am so glad you post here, tell your story. It’s inspiring.
Merry Christmas!
Standing ovation, my friend.
You are truly my hero this holiday season. I think of you all the time and the journey you are on. I can only hope to be half the woman you are.
Rock on with your sober self, little momma. You just rock on.
Wow!
Enjoy the holidays
Merry Christmas my friend. Hope your new awareness makes this the best one yet, you’ve worked hard for it.
Congrats and warmest wishes for a bright, happy holiday season!
Merry Christmas.
It’s hard to learn the prosaic little truths of life, but I’m glad you’re on the path.
Have a good holiday.
Looking more and more like the face of contentment. Well done, my friend.
Hi Rachael,
Have a great Christmas and a fabulous 2008!
x
Congrats on 75 days! And more on the good you’ve brought in to your life. Here’s to happy holidays and a wonderful 2008!
Julie
Using My Words
Love!
Beautiful picture — and beautiful sentiment. Merry Christmas to you and yours.
I can’t express in words how happy I am that you’ve found such joy and peace.
And you brought it to yourself; you know this, right?
You’re awesome.
I’m not sure how I stumbled upon your site, but hello. I’m also a redhead and the wife of a recovering (not so gracefully) alcoholic. Congrats on taking your steps into sobriety. I truly hope that 2008 is a wonderful year for you and your family, one day at a time.